Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Friday, October 06, 2017

My father died last year.

Hi. It has been one year a month and some days since my father died. He was a vietnam vet and died from health problems related to Agent Orange. I miss him. I'm still angry and still going thought the grief. I had flurry of art making in the years he was the sickest. So many shows to make work for. I feel bad for not spending time with him but I justify this by reflecting on him not being around much when I was a child. We had a difficult relationship but probably not anymore than most sons have with their fathers. His illness took away his speech and movements. He couldn't communicate so I just checked out. I sat with him and most of the time he was asleep. He couldn't do things for himself. I got angry a lot. I wasn't kind many times. He spent a lot of my teen and adult years yelling at me and being angry with me at the things I did. He never really taught me the stuff I was suppose to do. I miss him.

Thursday, August 11, 2016

dusting off the old blog

Wow it has been a long time since I last posted. 2011 to be exact. I really need to get into the habit of writing. I am reminded about this every time I have to revisit my artist statement for a grant application, fellowship, show etc. The talking bout my work is fairly easy for me but writing about it his an exercise in frustration. I know writing takes practice like anything else and practice is what I need. Also changed all posts titles to lower case.

Monday, September 12, 2011

paul krugman is right.

I believe Paul Krugman is right. September 11TH is a painful reminder that the conservative ideology is dangerous. George W. Bush , Dick Cheney et al held and continue to hold on to the view of American exceptionalism.
As I watched the the second plan hit the World Trade Center I knew that the united states constitution was done for. The USA Patriot act, wire tapping of american citizen's phones, exposing the identity of a CIA agent, ignoring the FISA court, international treaties, torturing prisoners and rendition are all examples of a list of of losses that continues on and on.
I did not mention the loss of the many lives from that day or the those killed in Afghanistan, Iraq, Pakistan and any other place we are fighting wars. To do so would support the justifications of the very people that use September 11TH to further destroy our hard won constitutional rights.
What we lost on that day was freedom. Plain and simple.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

one year later.

Well it has been one year since I quit my job at the Saint Louis Science Center.
I took six months off before I looked for other employment. I worked in my studio most days, got out of bed when I wanted to etc. I will never again waste my time working at a place that has poor leadership nor will work for an abusive boss again.
Ten years is too long to learn the value of ones self. I will never make that mistake again.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

twelve Days

Has been twelve days since I quit my job. still getting used to it. Monday I start working in the studio.

Monday, April 05, 2010

jobless by Choice

So as I wrote in my last post that I quit my job. I resigned at 4:00 P.M. on March 31st 2010. It felt weirdly good to leave on my own terms. When I told my supervisors supervisor that I was quitting he was shocked. I didn't tell my supervisor that I was leaving and I didn't give a two week notice either.
My supervisors supervisor ask if there was any reason why I was leaving. I told him the main reason was that my supervisor was my former intern and that I was the reason we hired him on after his internship and a short stint at a post facility. I had been there almost ten years and he had been there only about four years when he was promoted to supervise me. We are a two person department. I had never had a bad review and I didn't think it was fair that he was promoted over me. I have more experience in the field than he does and I have more education than he does. I even wrote him a good letter of recommendation after he left his internship to work at a post production facility. He worked at the post facility about six months and couldn't take it anymore and called me to see if we might be hiring. I said in fact we were looking to hire and I would recommend him for the job. I did and he was hired. Almost immediately he started to undermine me. etc blab blab.